The Science of Self-Help

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Day 1049

Day 1049 Record Keeping
Day 1021 Fixed Meditation (15 min - EXCELLENT)
Day 895 Writing (DID NOT DO)
Day 435 Rowing (125 15 lb kb swings, 5x25, Russian style)
Day 176 Mobility/Stretching (back & hip smash, hip stretch)
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Eating
Day 273 Pantry Check (DiD NOT DO)
Day 271 Food Recording

Early to Rise
Day 204 Water (DID NOT DO)
Day 204 Sleep Recording  (9:45|10:45|7:15|8:40)
Day 175 Bedtime Curfew
Day 13 Wakeup Alarm 66

Good sleep, good wakeup. Really depressed this morning. I think I’m going through what I’ve called a Vortex Force or Repletion problems. That’s when things are going really well, and depression hits because I feel I’m not doing enough.

Today I looked at a bunch of people on social media, like I usually do while waking up, and saw people doing amazing things. And it made me realize just how heavy that mountain is - how much I have to do, especially with writing. And even though I’m nailing my sleeping, waking up early naturally for 13 days which has never happened and is worthy of a book in and of itself, I wasn’t happy. I nailed my workout, my mobility, my meditation is excellent, and none of that is enough - all I could think of is how I’m not doing enough.

I know I need to hold off on doing more, especially since I’ll be traveling tomorrow and then again in a week. But maybe there are other ways to combat this - like looking at cute cat pics or doing affirmations or whatever in the morning.