Day 2569 Record Keeping
Day 2540 Fixed Meditation (DID NOT DO)
Day 2414 Writing (several hours of interview)
Day 1004 Flossing (All teeth)
Day 626 Planning
Day 220 Exercise (DID NOT DO)
Day 145 Mobilizing (DID NOT DO)
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ok sleep. Lately my habits and focus have been all over the place. I think most of it has to do with energy issues related to sleep. Getting into fixing my sleep hygiene.

I also think that my original idea of switching exercise every 3 months was probably a good idea. This got derailed due to bad foot injury. Combined with planning issues with work, I feel like I just don’t have time to properly discharge everything.

It is interesting how my current workout, which primarily consists of HIITs on the assault bike, started falling off after around 3 months. It’s not as though I can’t do the workouts. It’s just I don’t feel I’m getting anywhere with them. There’s this feeling of lag, of churning without growth, which is exactly what I hoped to counter by switching up exercises routines every 3 months.

The same thing has generally occurred with meditation.

My new paradigm separates the automatic start of a habit and the habit load. I’ve discussed on Instagram how this allows for things like “falling in love” with a habit, which generally doesn’t occur since habits are mindless and automatic, and love is generally quite mindful.

An adjacent concept is meaning. Grinding habits without progress consistently makes them break down. I think this might occur when skill based habits don’t contribute to growth. The lack of meaning eventually overcomes and erodes the automaticity fo discharging the habit.

Novelty, movement, growth, mindfulness - these things all contribute to this nebulous concept of going beyond the grind so that the mind can latch on to something more.

I have to think about this more, because this drop off in habits is quite consistent.