Day 279 & Fluctuating SRHI Indexes

Day 279 Record Keeping
Day 248 Fixed Meditation 
Day 194 Bodyweight Exercise  (3 bridges, 3 dragon lifts - almost flags)
Day 121 Writing = 80 (111 words)
Day 294 Eating = 59
Day 51 Work = 54
Ok sleep, good wakeup.

Fluctuating SRHI Indexes
My bodyweight exercises are going really well - I’ve almost achieved a shaky dragon flag. It’s nowhere near good form, but being able to lever up to my shoulders and go slowly down is really exciting progress.

My writing is basically a superhabit - throwing down words every day is easy - and NaNoWriMo really solidified it. BUT, my eating is in shambles and so is my work habit.

There is a weird emotional load with this - the feeling that doing excellent in writing is overshadowed by not being good enough in eating and work. It gets me down.

What I have to understand is that I did three habits stacked on top of one another - and these are ones that are hard - both emotionally and in terms of length to full habituation like the eating habit. Not to mention this time of year isn’t really great for habits either. It’s really hard.

So what I need to do is understand that despite incredibly difficult circumstances I’ve just about added another superhabit to the list. And I need to check out a set of protocols to handle holidays - call it the Thanksgiving or Christmas Protocol - and acknowledge its difficulty, especially since I will (hopefully) be doing this for years to come.

Day 189 & Additional Scaling to Meditation and Bodyweights

Day 189 Record Keeping 
Day 157 Fixed Meditation 
Day 103 Bodyweight Exercise  (3 ground up bridges, 1x4 dragon lifts)
Day 30 Writing = 38
Day 203 Eating = 78
Great sleep, great wakeup. 

Additional Scaling to Meditation and Bodyweights

After reading Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha and perusing the Dharma Overground the conclusion I’ve come to is that there are various facets of meditation. As far as I can tell you can work on single pointed concentration, “energy” work/tantra, and insight meditation.

Energy work or tantric style meditation (no not sexual stuff like how tantra is mischaracterized in the West) is what I’d categorize what I’m working on now. I basically use imagination, sensation, and visualization to drain away negative emotion and transform it into positive emotion. This has been the root of my training.

After reading the MCTB I’ve tacked on insight meditation - distantly observing sensations arising, staying the same, and lessening - a practice that has helped me immensely not only with emotional control, but controlling pain. 

What I’ve lacked is really serious single pointed meditation training. In Roald Dahl’s short story The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar the main character does this by taking a stop watch and literally times how long he can concentrate on one object. I’ve started doing the same and will start recording stats.

I’ve also decided to alternate days on this in 2 day splits - just like with bodyweight training’s 3 day splits. Every day I’ll work on the emotional energy thing, then add in either single pointed or insight training on alternating days.

Bodyweight training is going really well. I’m able to do 3x8 burpees with knee slappers and I’m starting in on full diamond pushups. I’ve made amazing progress with my core and am very proud to start training for the dragon flag.

The dragon flag is one of the most intense core exercises, and I thought I wouldn’t be ready for a long long time. But it too presents problems with scaling. Thank god for youtube. The guy in THIS video has a lot of tips on starting off and gradually progressing with the exercise. I’m at the lowest lowest rung on that progression, the beginner exercises of simply doing a leg raise, going past that and getting the butt off the ground and extending out without letting my butt touch the ground (what I’m calling “dragon lifts” - though I’m sure there’s got to be a better term for it).

It’s hard but I’m really excited to get started on it.